December 24th 2012

Today was Christmas Eve. Me and my family had a lot of stuff to do today to get the last few bits done before Christmas. I think Amanda cam over to my house for like an hour to give me my Christmas presents. She came up to my room and gave me 4 presents all wrapped individually. She got me a bottle a perfume; the same one that Katie got me, but I was happy because I really liked the smell of it, she got me a new make-up brush because she said my other was ridiculously worn out and used, she got me a lovely bracelet which is gorgeous and so me, and the present that she said wasn't ready on the last day of school was a key-ring with a picture of me and her in it. I love it! It was worth the wait and was such a good idea and a lovely thing to get me. She then left and I started to help my mam with getting the house clean and tidy.

Me and my family left the house and headed to Cherry Orchard Hospital to visit my nanny who is now a permanent resident. We went there and went into her ward and she was asleep, she didn't know who anybody was which I thought was really sad because I would hate that to happen to me because it's such a bad way to live. We stayed there for  about an hour, took a few pictures and gave her a few Christmas cards and then we brought her into the place where they had dinner cooking for her. We then left and headed for the graveyard, we bought a few bunches of lovely flowers and a Christmas wreath and set off for the grave. It was really cold and my mam and dad were sorting out the flowers on the grave and then afterwards we said a few prayers.

I had planned to go out to Brian so that we could exchange our Christmas presents. I got either my mam or my dad to drop me up to Brian's house and I went in and gave him his presents. He opened his card first and he gave me mine. He got me "18 months" by Calvin Harris and a good few belly bars, I was delighted because I wanted to be able to change the colour of it depending on what I was wearing. I got him a silver bracelet and R.E.D by Ne-Yo. We were both in such a happy mood and were hugging and kissing and then Brian went in to show his mam and dad the presents I got him, I then handed a Christmas gift bag to Karen and she opened it and took out a bottle of red wine and a box of Roses. She smiled and thanked me. She then handed me a package. I thanked her and then me and Brian went back into the kitchen. I opened it and it was a leopard cuddly toy which was so soft. Me and Brian then left because we were going back to my house so that Brian could give my parents the presents he got for them.

We went in and me, Brian, my mam and dad were talking for a few minutes about our plans for Christmas Day and the holidays. Brian then gave my mam a bag and she thanked Brian and then my mam and dad went off so me and Brian were just chatting away for a few minutes. Brian then left because there was so much for me and my family to do to prepare for Christmas Day. For the rest of the afternoon and night, I was helping my mam around the house with little tasks that needed to be done for Christmas Day. We made sure that the decorations were all up, the dining room table was set, the food was getting cooked, the floors were hovered and all counters were polished. We also changed the bed covers which is a tradition in my house. After all of the jobs were done, I went upstairs to wash my hair and have a shower, I then cleaned around my room and got my clothes ready for the next day and then I straightened my hair. I then got into bed at about 10.30pm and tried my best to get to sleep but despite me being 17 years old, I still acted like a child by not being able to get to sleep because I was so excited.

December 23rd 2012

Today again I didn't do anything really major. I lead such an exciting life don't I? :P 

December 22nd 2012

Today I don't think I did anything out of the ordinary. 

December 21st 2012

Today was the last day of my exams, I had Maths and Spanish that day and the world was "supposed" to be ending at like 11.20am but I didn't believe that would happen, it was just a rumour. I walked to school at about 8.30am with Amanda and when we got to the traffic lights nearest my school, we met up with Rachel and then 3 of us walked the rest of the way. I gave and Amanda and Rachel their Christmas presents and they hugged me and said they wouldn't open them until we got into school. When we got in and were all sitting down, they opened them. I got Amanda a lovely diamond bead bracelet and a perfume with spray, she loved them and gave me another hug. I got Rachel a necklace with the letter "R" on it and a nice bottle of perfume, she loved it and she also gave me a hug. Rachel had given me mine and it was a nice bath set with loads of bubbles, lotion and bath beads. It was so nice that everyone was happy and giving each other presents.

When Alex and Katie came along, I gave then their presents too and they gave me mine. Katie got me a nice make-up set, a bottle of perfume and a giant candy-cane. It was really nice and I gave her a massive hug. I had got Katie a nice bottle of perfume and a pair of blue stud earrings. Alex gave me a lovely gift bag with a gorgeous purple/leopard-print scarf, a Christmas mug with sweets and a photo holder which had the letters "LOL" on it and on the 2 L's there was a metal circle thing where you can put a photo. I loved it and it was so me. All the presents were exactly what I wanted.

My maths exam was in room 32 and I was sitting at the front at the right hand side of the room, next to the window because despite the weather, it was really hot. Ms. Watson gave our exam papers out and then she went and another teacher took over. Midway through my exam, Ms. Watson returned and she spoke to the teacher who was there and then started walking over towards me. I was thinking to myself  "What have I done now?", she came over and bent over to talk to me, she apologized for interrupting yet another one of my exams and then she put an envelope on my table and said "Just a little something", I didn't really no what that meant, so when she left, I opened the envelope and it was a "Thank-you" card. 

I opened it and it read:

"Lauren,

Thank you so much for your very kind and generous present. It was really good of you and most unexpected! I hope you have a great Christmas and a good rest.

                                                                                                P. Watson."

I was touched and happy that she had liked it, she didn't need to get me anything but it was a nice thing for her to do. I carried on with my exam, which was really hard.

 

I then had my Spanish exam and me and Alex went to Room 20 where the rest of our classmates where and we all just got talking about the exam and the world ending. I decided to text my mam for a joke saying how much I loved her and I would see her on the other side. She sent me back a text saying "Fuck off Lauren, I'm here on my own because Bailey can't save me". Me and Alex were breaking our hearts laughing and then Bebhinn decided to call her mam and tell her that she would see her on the other side and that she loved her, it was so funny because of the way she was saying it.

When the exam started, we had Ms. Macken supervising us and when it was coming up to 11.20am, we were all looking at each other, preparing ourselves for the "end of the world". 11.21am and nothing happened, it was all a myth, the world didn't end, and everyone carried on with their exam. The exam was okay, not easy and not hard but okay. I was finished with about 20 minutes to spare at the end. Alex was laughing and she pointed over to Bebhinn and Robyn who were messing but putting things in their mouths like highlighters and pens which was really funny because of the faces they were pulling. I couldn't stop laughing because they were just mad.

December 20th 2012

Today I had Biology and Home Economics which were the 2 exams I was mostly worried about because they were kind of essential to get into college. In the morning I had a study period so I studied both subjects as best as I could. I then went to room 31 where my Biology exam was. It was about mid way when Ms. Watson came in and she was looking down the back of the room where I was sitting. She then stood up and walked over to me and said that I needed to move the table over because it was too close to the table beside me, she moved about 2 tables and then moved mine over, she smiled at me, then walked away. I don't think, she I was cheating, I think she just thought that the tables were too close together. Not a big deal, she probably didn't want me getting into trouble in the real exam.

I then had my Home Economics exam which was just as hard but as I did with all my other exams so far, I just tried my best which is all anyone can ever do. 

December 19th 2012

Today's exams were Geography and Irish but I had 1 study period before geography which was good. I studied in the morning but when it came around to my Geography exam, I went into room 30 and there was no tables available so I stood outside and waited for a teacher to come along and help me. Ms. Kavanagh Bracken came and she helped me push a table and chair from room 29 into room 30 but when we came back in, I think it was Davina who said "Lauren there's a table over here!" I didn't see that table when I went in there for the first time. I thanked Ms. Kavanagh Bracken and she brought the table and chair back. I sat over beside the heater and started my exam.

Oh My God! It was so hard, I could've cried during the exam but I tried my best, by answering all of the questions and not leaving anything blank, which is all I can do.

Irish was no better because well it's Irish. I tried my best and answered all the questions. The exams were not off to a good start. :'( 

December 18th 2012

Today was the first day of my Christmas exams. I had English in the afternoon in room 29 so I had 2 study periods so that was grand I could get a good bit of studying done. The English exam went okay like it wasn't hard but it wasn't that easy. 

December 17th 2012

Today in school, it was our last day of school before the exams started. We had our carol service at like 9.30am and me, Amanda and Alex were sitting in our seats and then the service started. It was nice and then we all went back to class to bring out seats back and then we had break. During some of the classes today, we just went over some of the topics in each subject and studied in class.

At about 12pm in Irish, the teacher was going over what was going to be on our exam when the electricity suddenly went in the school so we were all studying in the dark which was hard because it was like pitch black. We carried on and then when we went to Biology the electricity came back so everything went back to normal. We didn't do any work, instead we sang some Christmas songs in class and everyone joined in.

During lunch, it was really funny, as always, I can't really remember what happened but whether it was me or Amanda but one of us said something really funny and everyone just laughed and we were singing and messing and just acting like complete goons but hey, the best memories are the ones you share with your friends <3

In Spanish it was really funny as well and guess who was the one that started it all?

Who do you think? It was Bebhinn of course who always in Spanish talks complete and utter nonsense but in a fast Spanish accent and everyone just looks at her and laughs because it's so funny. In Religion, we didn't do any work either, we just sat and listened to songs on YouTube and some of the girls including Bebhinn and Ruth were dancing and Ms. Guillfoyle gave us a box of chocolates to pass around which was nice. In maths we didn't really do anything either just going over some of the questions that might've been on the test and then about 10 minutes before the end of class, everyone in my class got the tables ready for the exams by separating them.

I got a lift home but I cannot remember if it was by my mam or with Amanda. After school I think I just hung out with Brian. 

December 16th 2012

Today me and my family planned to go to Liffey Valley because we were meeting up with my god-father; Darren Byrne, and his family for the second time. We planned to meet up with them at about 2pm so when we got there, me and my family went up to the food court and started looking for a table that would fit up to 7 people. We were walking around for a while when this man and woman called me over and told me that they were done, that was grand so we sat down. We then saw Darren and his family and they came over to us and helped us look for a table. We were then creeping on the people around us to see if  they were finished eating, my dad had pulled a table from the other side of the food court and we joined the two tables together and all of us sat down. Darren had came along with his youngest daughter; Sorca, his son; Leon, his wife and her mother.

We had all gotten food from different places like I had gotten mine from McDonald's, Dean's from KFC and my mam and dad had gotten some curry dish from a Chinese place. We all tucked in and started talking about what our plans was for the Christmas and just general talk really. Darren started talking to me about what I liked and asking me things about myself. I felt touched because he had not seen me in 13 years so he was making the effort to get to know me. He was really nice and seemed to be really interested.  

It was really fun and everyone was enjoying themselves but then Darren said that they had to make a move so I was bit sad that they couldn't come back to our house but Darren promised that they would over the Christmas holidays. My dad said that we had presents to give them so they said they would wait until we came back. Darren came over to me and knelt down and wished me a Happy Christmas and said that he was glad that he had got to meet me again. I gave me a box and gave me a kiss on the cheek. Me and my dad then left and headed to the car park to get the bag of presents. While my dad was getting the bag from the boot, I opened my present, it was a phone. It was a Vodafone Smartphone 2, it didn't register in my brain what type of phone it was but I was really appreciative.

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We then headed back and I handed the bag to Darren and thanked him for the phone. He gave me a hug and then all of us walked over to the lifts. We got in and walked up to Dunne's together and then we went our separate ways. After we had finished looking in a few shops, we then left and went home. I then got ready and went up to Brian's estate and hung out with him and his friends.

December 15th 2012

Today I went out to Brian and his friends and we just hung out for some time during the day. 

December 14th 2012

Today was the dress up day in school so when I got up, I got ready by putting on my make-up and doing my hair as normal but I just wore a pair of jeans and a jumper just in case I wanted to take the Santa Claus costume off. Amanda was getting a lift with me so she came to my house at like 8.15 and when she came over she laughed when she saw me. I didn't care because it was my last year in school so I was going to make the effort and have fun so that I would remember it in years to come.

We headed off to school and I had so much to bring in, I had my schoolbag on my back, Paul's Boutique bag on my right shoulder, P.E. bag on left shoulder and Ms. Watson's present in my right hand. Amanda helped me with some of my things. When we got into school I put my P.E. bag and Ms. Watson's present into a P.E. locker and headed off to class in the big Santa costume which I was sweating in. The day was grand and all the teachers thought I was gas for dressing up, we ended up not even doing P.E. so we just went to a classroom where me and Alex just laughed our way through.

At lunch time, Amanda gave out the little cakes she made. they were shaped like gingerbread men but nicer and had pink icing on them for buttons. They were yummy and after them, we were all chatting away having a bit of banter and then we were all singing along to a song and Amanda then tried on the top half of my suit. She put on the hat and beard and even had the belly on her too. Her and Katie started dancing and then they were running all over the games room messing and nearly wetting themselves laughing. It was nice to see everyone happy for once.

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 We were in Spanish and I was getting a bit fed up wearing the suit so I took it off and put it into my bag, well tried to, squeezing it into every nook and cranny. We had a free Spanish too so me and Alex were just messing really. In Geography, I was going to give Ms. Watson her Christmas present but I was a little nervous because I didn't want her thinking that it was a bit inappropriate to be getting a preset off one of her students but it was just a little Christmas present because she was my favourite teacher. I was going to give it to her after class when everyone is like gone out of the classroom but during the class, she kind of gave out to me because we were drawing a sketch map and instead of drawing 2 lines on it, I drew 6 so she saw my map and said "Some of you are just not listening to me". I knew that she was talking about me and it made me a bit scared of giving the present to her. I was good for the rest of the class I can tell you that.

When the bell had gone, I was getting my stuff together and then she walked out the door, I ran after her but, because of all the people and she was talking to someone, it wasn't until the 2nd year mall that I tipped her arm and gave them to her. She looked at me with awe and maybe a little bit of love ?

I was happy that I did something that make her happy. she walked away and I was delighted with myself, I headed to reception where I met Amanda. I got my P.E. bag out of the locker and then we walked outside. We walked past Ms. Watson and she smiled. She is such a lovely woman and most people are afraid of her but they shouldn't be because she is one of the nicest teachers in the school and just try their best to help you.

December 13th 2012

When I got into school, I was sitting with Rachel and we were talking about what happened the night before. When Amanda walked in, you could see in her face that she was devastated and we both hugged her and she started to cry so we walked upstairs to the bathrooms and the 3 of us were talking and she was telling us what happened. I felt myself tearing up too because she was so upset and I couldn't believe that her dad could be really heartless and take Bella away and I didn't understand why Amanda's mam didn't stop him or try to talk to him.

Amanda was getting so upset and she said that her sister wasn't upset about Bella being taken off her and then I got confused. Amanda told us that her sister was autistic and that's why she wasn't getting upset because apparently if you're autistic, you can't connect with you surroundings and cannot express your emotions properly so that was why she didn't get upset when Bella was taken away.

For the rest of the day it was all just about making Amanda feel a little bit better and make her forget about what was going on for a few hours until she had to go home, I even said that she could come back to my house school in case she didn't want to go home just yet. She thought it was best to just go home and face the problems head on.

Later on in the night, I had my dad get the Santa Claus costume from the attic and then my mam helped me to get it ready for tomorrow. I got 2 old pillows and put

hair-bands around them, holding them in place, my mam had big black furry boots that I was going to wear, my mam made a beard out of the false hair off a Mrs. Claus hat. It was so cool how she did it but she did. My mam is so great when it comes to dress up days because she used to work in a sewing factory so whenever you have a hole in your jeans or need a chicken outfit, go to my mam and she'll sort you out. 

December 12th 2012

Today nothing really happened in school. It was a pretty boring day but on Skype or Facebook that night, I was talking to Amanda and Alex but Amanda didn't seem herself or she seemed a bit distant or not very talkative so I was asking Alex if something had happened. What she said next shocked me. Amanda was upset because her dad was away for a few days when Sarah got Bella and when he came home, he said they were getting rid of her. I thought that was so mean, I mean it was Sarah's money and Bella was going to be living in Sarah's room so I didn't see what the big idea was and Amanda has 2 dogs already. I felt so sorry for Amanda and I just wanted to give her a hug but Alex was telling that it would be better and just leave her alone. 

December 11th 2012

Today nothing really happened that was interesting enough for me to write about :D

December 10th 2012

Today Ms. Mc'Hale was out again so we had a substitute teacher who was helping us with our comparative studies.  I was talking to Amanda today and she was telling me that he sister Sarah had got a dog, an 8 week old pup, I can't remember what breed it was but it looked like a baby husky. She was grey and white and her name was Bella. I was in awe of her because me and Amanda could bring the 2 dogs out for walks when they get older. I was going to go over to her house after school to see her because I couldn't wait until the weekend to go over to her house to see her.

When I went over to Amanda's house, we bother went up to Sarah's bedroom to see her but when we went up, Sarah was telling us that Bella was scared so she was hiding underneath the bed and she couldn't get her out. Me and Amanda lay on the floor and trying to coax her out and then eventually Amanda got her and put her on the bed. She was beautiful and her fur was so fine. She had tiny teeth and nails and little ears and she had grey/white hairs through her coat.

Here's a picture that looks like her.

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December 9th 2012

Today I think I just hung out with Brian. I can't remember what we did but we either went for a walk around Celbridge and went to Tesco, Spar and knowing us we probably ended up in either his house or mine. 

December 8th 2012

Today me and Brian were going to Blanchardstown because we were going to see "The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part 2". My dad dropped us over and then he went home and told me to call him when we wanted him to leave. Me and Brian went into the cinema and got our tickets and he went and got food for himself but I thought because of how he had treated me lately that he would be nice and buy something for me. Not the case! When we had our seats in the cinema, I left and didn't even tell him where I was going. I went over to McDonald's and got a €1 hamburger and a Smartie McFlury. I came back and he was going on saying how worried he was about me.

The movie started and it was BRILLIANT, I was sad that this was the last film but it ended with a FUCKING BANG! There was a big shock at the end though because I still haven't finished the last book so the end was a big surprise to me and I was shocked. It was really good though and Brian enjoyed it too. After it I texted my dad and told him to leave and he told me he would be there in 30 minutes so me and Brian decided to go for a walk around the shops and chat. We went into a few shops and then he was acting like everything was normal but it wasn't. I felt so heartbroken inside and didn't want him thinking he could just walk all over me. I broke down in tears and he stopped and held me as I cried my eyes out. He squeezed me and swore he would never hurt me again. He wiped my tears away and kissed me and we carried on walking with him clinging tightly on to my hand.

My dad came and collected us and then me and Brian went back to mine and just hung out until he had to go home.

December 7th 2012

Today when I went into school and I told my friends about Bailey and showed them a picture of him that I took on my phone. They all were saying that he was cute and how lucky I was. Amanda didn't go to school because her back was sore from when she fell yesterday. In Biology, Ms. Felle decided that we would do the group work thing because she had really good feedback from the people that went last night. I was in a group with Clodagh O'Hare, Sinead Simpson and Niamh O'Reilly and because I was the only one out of the group that went to the afterschool biology things last night, I had to explain to them what we had to do.

In English, Ms. Mc'Hale was out again and all of us were wondering where she was because she had been out for the past 3 days and didn't leave any work so we knew something was wrong. In Home Economics, seeing as Amanda was out I asked Patricia, the new girl to sit in her seat and we started talking and then about 10 minutes before the end of class, she put her head on the table and I could clearly see that she was upset. I tried talking to her and she was saying that she didn't want to go home because she had a fight with her mam and she wanted to go anywhere else but her home. When class was over I asked someone in the class she had next to help her stop crying and bring her bag to her next class. I felt sorry for her :'(

I didn't do P.E this week because I was so caught up in the moment last night with my family getting Bailey that I forgot about brining my P.E uniform into school so it didn't bother me getting a note from Mr. Lawlor. I was too busy playing with Bailey to even care about P.E. :P Alex wasn't doing P.E. either so Mr. Lawlor told us we had to help him. He asked me whether I had a stopwatch on my phone and told me to use it to record peoples times. Alex was given a page and pen and she had to write people's names and time's of which I told her. It was actually more fun not doing P.E. because me and Alex were having a right ou'l laugh and just chatting away.

For the rest of the day, I kept telling people about Bailey and the little things he does like yawn and walk in a funny way, I wasn't trying to show off to people I was just excited and wanted people to know about him. Actually that's a lie! I did want to show him off because he is the best little puppy in the whole wide world :)

In Geography, Ms. Watson told us why Ms. Mc'Hale had been out, it was because her mother died recently and she hadn't come in because she was too upset. I felt so bad and sorry for her because her mam would've only been in her 60's and Ms. Mc'Hale is the nicest person you will ever meet and to have something so bad happen to her was just not fair :'(

After school, me and Alex walked home because she was coming over to my house because she wanted to see Bailey. When she came in and saw him, I could see from her face that she loved him. She was holding him and saying how small and fluffy he was. Me, Alex and my mam were all talking about Bailey and about dogs for about 30 minutes and then Alex's mam and Sarah came to collect her but they came into the house to see Bailey and they all got a turn in holding him and then the 5 of us were chatting away for ages and then Alex, Sarah and their mam left.

Then  Brian came over because we were going to be hanging out. He was holding Bailey and playing with him and then for the rest of the night we just hung out, watched television and just yapped away :P 

December 6th 2012

This morning I was walking to school with Amanda but it was about 20 past 8 when I got a phone call from her. I answered it and she was crying, I tried to calm her and asked her what had happened. She had fallen on the ice, there was black ice all over the place and she said she fell on her back and hurt her leg which was still on the road to recovery. She told me that she went home and didn't know whether she would be in school that day. Me and my mam left my house and drove around to her house because I needed to see if she was okay. I ran up to her house and didn't even knock just walked straight in, she was there in her sitting room sobbing her eyes out and couldn't really talk properly. I told her that she was to sit in her sitting room with a cup of tea and wait for her mam to get home. I then left and gave her a huge hug and told her to lock her front door.

I headed off to school and then told the girls what had happened. Throughout the whole day all I could think about was Amanda because I had gotten no texts from her saying what was going on or anything. In English, Ms. Mc'Hale was out again and didn't leave any work again which I thought was very odd because it wasn't like her.

Today when the bell rang at 4pm, everyone was going home but a few 6th years stayed because our Biology substitute teacher; Ms. Felle, was doing an after school biology study class and about 12 of us turned up. I was sitting at the back of the class with Alex and Aoife Byrne and a few other girls and we were in a group and there was 2 other groups. It lasted an hour and she came around to all of us and asked us whether we got the topics in Biology. I asked her a few questions and I then understood what she was talking about for the past week. It was a real good way of learning because she all made us draw pictures and facts on an A2 piece of paper to make it easier for us to learn. She then brought loads of sheets of A2 paper and said we can take as many as we want. I went up and got 3 :P

When it was over at 5pm, I left and walked to Brian's house because I planned to just spend a few hours there so we could do homework together. It was lashing and breezy so I soldiered on to his house breaking my umbrella in the process. When I got there, we sat at his dining room table and while he was doing his LCVP homework, I used one of the A2 sheets to make a Biology poster. Brian then brought out a pack of Jaffa Cakes and a nice big glass of milk. All was good and we were having until my dad called me at about 5.45pm and told me that I had to come home right now. I didn't know if I was in trouble or not. My dad came to Brian's house like 5 minutes later and I went home.

When I got home I walked up to the kitchen and I could see a playpen like what you would put a baby in and I asked my mam was she looking after a baby or something and then I saw a little white fluffy thing popping his head out from behind my mams leg. It was a dog and he was so small and cute. While I went over and was petting him, my mam told me that he was ours but I didn't believe her because she hates dogs.

I couldn't stop looking at him and playing with him, he was so happy, jumping around and smelling everything. My mam then told me about him.

He was a 7 week old, pure bichon frise from Wexford and my mam and dad had got him that morning and wanted us to surprise us with an early Christmas present. His mam and dad were both pure bichon frises and he had 8 brothers and sister but one of them died when he/she was born. My mam was telling me that another woman had put down a price for him but she couldn't collect him until the weekend so my mam and dad went down to Wexford midweek. She was telling me that when they had got him and were on the way home, he was standing up in the box he was in and looking out the window. They couldn't come up with a name so they had Charlie and Bailey in mind but when they were stopped at a red light, there was a pub across the road called "Bailey's" so they decided that the new little puppy's name would be "Bailey". I loved it and I loved him, he was so cute with a snow white coat and light brown ears which made him unique but my mam said that when he gets older, he will be pure snow white.

After playing with him for a few hours, it was 

time for him to go to bed because he was only 2 months old, so he's only a little baby. My mam and dad had decided that because it was his first night in our house, he might be scared because he would be on his own so my dad brought the playpen upstairs to my mam and dads room. When we were all going to bed, Bailey was put inside the playpen with some blankets and a teddy I gave him. I was so happy that they got a dog and they couldn't have gotten a better one that him. He is perfect and he's not just a dog, he's part of the family <3

December 5th 2012

Today I didn't really anything but my English teacher was out and she didn't leave any work so we just decided to do some of our homework. 

December 4th 2012

Today again I didn't really do anything. 

December 3rd 2012

Today I didn't really do anything. 

December 2nd 2012

Today I helped my mam by adding a few more decorations to Santa's Grotto, that's how much decorations we already had, and to add to that, dear GOD!

In the late afternoon I then went over to Brian's house to do some homework. After we were finished our homework, we then just relaxed for the rest for the night. I then went home at 10pm I think.

December 1st 2012

Today me and my family headed off to Blanchardstown because we were going to be picking up a few bits for Christmas and I was getting a few more presents today for my friends and family. We got there and we went into a few clothes shops because my mam wanted to get Dean's Christmas clothes. We spent about an hour going around the shops and finally we picked up something for him, we then went into a chocolate shop and my mam bought this box of sweets for €6 but it was a game where you have to spin a little wheel and whatever sweet it lands on you have to eat it.

I then went into The Perfume Shop because I was looking for an aftershave set for my dad's Christmas present. I found this set for €8 and it had an aftershave and a body spray so I thought that would be perfect because I never know what to get my dad because he is so hard to buy for. I then made my way to Penny's, I was looking for a small present for my friends that could go along with the other present I had got them. I went over and I saw some small bottles of perfume which smelled lovely and for a bottle it was under a fiver, I thought that was a bargain. I got one for Katie and one for Rachel because I had already gotten Amanda and Alex's in the Avon.

I also needed to get my dad something else because I made a decision that this year I was going to buy everyone two presents each. I went upstairs to the men's section and all I could think about getting him was socks. GAY present I know but I honestly didn't know what else and the ones I got were killer! I got a pair of The Simpsons and a pair of Family Guy so I thought they would be suffice.

After getting all I came here for, I met up with my family again  and we decided to go into KFC and get some yummy food. We all tucked in and then we left and went home. I went upstairs and got ready because I was going to be going over to Brian's house. When I got there, he was showing me that he put up the Christmas tree, not the lights or decorations or anything just the tree. I decided that we would both decorate the tree and make it look all nice so that his mam and dad would like it. We spent a good hour doing the decorations because he only had one set of lights but they were 4000 foot long! Well they weren't 4000 but they looked like the where. I had Brian holding the massive bundle of lights and we both walked around the tree numerous times and covered every last bit of tree making sure there was not one branch without a bit of light on it.

When we were finished we were knackered so we just plonked ourselves on the sofa and Brian's mam went out and got a take-away and for the rest of the night I think we all just sat in front of the television eating our food with the nice atmosphere of Christmas in the air. At 11pm I then went home.

November 30th 2012

Today when the bell rang at 3.20pm, I was relieved because yet another weekend had come and I was going to take advantage of it. Brian was off early so he met me at the traffic lights and he walked me home. He was going to be staying hopefully until after midnight because "The Late Late Toy Show" was on and he was watching it in my house with my family so he asked his mam could she collect him after it. She said "Yes" so we were going have a good night; eating, drinking, singing and having fun.

Me and Brian hung out for a few hours just going on the internet, listening to different songs and then I think we went down to Tesco for a walk but then cam back at like 7pm. My mam had prepared a spread which included chicken nuggets, mini pizzas, wedges, pop chicken, chicken dippers and garlic bread. Me and Brian were sitting on the two seater, my mam and Dean were on the 3 seater and my dad was alone on the recliner. With only the lights off the Christmas Tree lighting up the room we all tucked in taking as much food as we wanted and sat down with our feet up and drinks at hand and flicked on the television.

The Late Late Toy Show was a bit boring because it was just really little kids toys so we weren't really that interested but as a Murphy Family tradition, we have to watch it from start to finish every year! It was on for about 3 hours and Ryan Tuberty looked like he had a few before the show because he looked a bit drunk but he was gas. There was one kid on it that made us all laugh because he was so funny but he was dry.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eEIBWLcuv9k

Nearing the end of the show a brand new band called "FreshRé performed Ludacris' hit song "Express Yourself". Me and Brian couldn't wait to see them because they were people we knew from our schools. The main guy was Harrison who goes to Salesian College and then there was 2 other guys from Salesian College, the girl; Ashlee Scanlon was from my school and her 10 year old little brother was also in the band. They were brilliant and doing Celbridge proud. I'd say they are going to make it big!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P9GZkrrXjOc

Brian then left at about 12.40pm and his dad brought him home and I went to bed because I was knackered. 

November 29th 2012

Today nothing really happened that was surprising or out of the ordinary. I lead such an exciting life because everyday is just packed with action and drama :P lol

In the evening when I cam home from school my mam had the Christmas tree put up in the sitting room and was starting to decorate the tree with lights and baubles. I wanted to help do something because I love decorating my house with Christmas decorations because it gets you in the mood for Christmas. I ended up helping my mam stick up the odd Christmas decoration in the sitting room and I put up the smaller Christmas tree we have in the hall and decorated it in whatever way I wanted. It was my own little creation and I was proud. Sound's gay but whatev's :P

November 28th 2012

Today again I didn't really do anything interesting. :P 

November 27th 2012

Today I didn't do anything that interesting. :P

November 26th 2012

Today was a pretty boring day and nothing really exciting happened apart from when we got our injections. We were in Home Economics and we were all called down to the hall where there was 2 women sitting at a table with our class lists. I was the first person to get it done, so when she gave me my vaccination sheet, which my mam filled out, I was sent over to this man. I was gutted because usually women are a bit more light-hearted when it comes to giving needles to me. I sat down and took off my shirt so I was just wearing a string top so easy access to get to my upper arm. He was asking me like have I any blood problems and was I pregnant which was bit awkward. It counted down from "3" but I looked at the wrong time, biting my tongue I saw the needle going in which I felt sick about because I don't like needles. That's funny because I have a tattoo and my belly button pierced but I don't like "them" kind of needles where a substance actually goes into my bloodstream.

When I was finished I had to sit in a circle of chairs for 15 minutes just in case something happened to me or if I collapsed of something. I was fine though so at 10.15 I headed back to Home Economics. We didn't do any work for the rest of class because the injection kind of made us all tired and grumpy. Ha :P 

November 25th 2012

Today I didn't really do anything except for lounging around with my family and catching up on some homework.

November 24th 2012

Today me and my mam decided to go to town because we were going to be getting my Christmas clothes. I went into loads of shops and I tried on loads of clothes and I ended up getting a black blazer, blue shirt and a bag in Penny's. After going into every shop in town and trying on nearly everything they sold in the shop, me and my mam decided to get my dad to drop us off at Liffey Valley and then look at a few shops there because I seen a nice pair of bottoms and a nice top in New Look.

When we got there, I went up to look for the bottoms and the top and they had the bottoms and in my size and all but they didn't have the top that I seen a few days ago. They had one in the same style but a different colour. The one I seen before was a black and white one but they one they had there that day was leopard print. As I was making my way over to the changing rooms, I spotted a pair of black heel boots which were black suede with gold dots on them and were so nice. So I brought them all into the changing rooms and I made sure I had my Penny's bag with me so that I could try on the whole outfit together.

I loved it! I was really happy with the outfit but my mam was a bit sceptical about the shoes but I have shoes that are way higher than the boots. I ended up getting the things from New Look and then we went downstairs and I went over to The Perfume Shop and I saw a nice perfume set which I was going to get for my year head; Ms. Watson. It smelled really nice and it was in a set with 2 creams and it was only €8 so I thought that would be grand along with a bottle of white wine and some chockies :)

We then went home and about an hour later Brian came over and I showed him my outfit and he really liked it and then me and him just hung out for the rest of the night.

November 23rd 2012

Today I woke up and I went to school but I had to leave at like 12pm because I needed to go to the hospital to pick up my new retainers. My mam picked me up and drove to Salesian College because she was going to leave the car parked outside the school and hop on the bus right beside the school and go into town and the pick up the car later on. We headed into town and got off a Houston Station and hopped on the Luas and set off for St. James' Hospital. When we got in there was only a few people there, but it still took over an hour to be seen because my retainers weren't sent over from the labs so I had to wait.

I went into room 4 this time and I noticed that my doctor wasn't even in, so she didn't even bother to come in and fix the mistake she had caused. My new retainers fit so I was pleased that I wouldn't be in pain for the next 6 weeks. Me and my mam left and I think we went into town and got something to eat and then after we headed home because I had organised with Brian for Dean to go back to Brian's house for a few hours because me and my mam wouldn't be back in time to collect Dean.

At about 4pm me and my mam were on the bus home and decided to get off in the village because my mam wanted to pick up her bracelet in the jewellers. She was nervous because she didn't want it to be expensive so she was hoping it was no more than €50 but she was delighted because it was only €20. We walked over to the bus stop and got the bus up to Salesian College and hoped in the car and then drove home so I could run in and get changed and then we headed up to Brian's house.

When we got there, we went in and my mam just thanked Brian's mam and dad for having Dean for a few hours. She and my mam left and I stayed and showed Brian my teeth and he was surprised because he had never seen my teeth without my braces. For the rest of the night we just watched television. 

November 22nd 2012

Today when I woke up, I didn't get ready for school as normal, I got dressed in my own clothes and I went downstairs to get some breakfast. I was getting my braces off today so I wasn't going to school because my appointment was for 9am and then I had another one at 3.40pm so my mam said that I didn't have to go to school. My dad got the day off work so at like 8.15am all 4 of us left and headed for Salesian College so we could drop Dean off at school and then we headed for the N4 but when we were on the roundabout, we saw the traffic and my mam told my dad to go another way so we went up by Lucan so I knew for a fact that I would be late for my appointment. My mam called up the reception and told them that we would be late and they were saying that we should just be here as soon as we could.

When we got to the hospital, my dad dropped me and my mam off at the door and he went off and waited for us to be done. We went in and sat down, there was like 3 other people there. We waited for about 10 minutes and then I was called in, my mam came with me down to room 7 and I sat in the chair. I was so nervous because I couldn't wait to see what my teeth looked like underneath my braces. Doctor O'Sullivan started to get started by looking at my teeth and then she put this water pipe into my mouth which kept my mouth wet an then she started to take the brackets off my teeth which wasn't that sore at all and while she turned away to get something to clean the bacteria off of my teeth, I licked my teeth on the sly and it felt so weird.

She was then talking to me for a little while about my teeth and she was saying that I didn't need surgery to align my jaw so I was chuffed, I saw my teeth for the first time and I looked like John Bishop because my teeth didn't suit my face, they looked massive but my mam said that it was just because I had my braces on my teeth for so long that I had forgotten what my teeth actually looked like. She then started to make a mould of my new teeth so that I could wear a set of retainers so that my teeth wouldn't move back to their original places. She had like this blue mould that she put into my mouth and I had to bite down as hard as I could and then she told me that I had to come back at 3.45pm to pick them up.

We then left and met back up with my dad and then we headed off to get something to eat, we went to Liffey Valley and we went up to some cafe up in the food court and we got ourselves a fry up. I had sausages, beans, rashers, toast and a cup of tea. I couldn't believe how weird it was to eat without my braces, it was like I had to learn all over again how to eat. My mam and dad couldn't stop laughing at me because my teeth just didn't suit my face and because I also had a lisp but I didn't care, my teeth were perfect and it only took 18 months to fix them. I couldn't wait to get them whitened because my mam did say that after I get my braces off she and I would go and get our teeth whitened together.

After breakfast was over, we went home and I went up to my room and put on my stereo and started singing and seeing how I would sound with my new teeth and I liked it. I know this is a weird comparison but it was like a paralysed person being able to walk again and it felt great. I couldn't wait to show them off to my friends on Friday.

At like 2.30 me and my dad set off to the hospital once again to pick up my retainers. I went in and I was like the only person there but yet it still took them about a good 30 minutes before I was called. I went in and she looked at my teeth again and put in my retainers and her face said it all; something was wrong. She was telling me that my retainers weren't fitting properly. Apparently the top ones were too small and were only covering half of my front teeth. She told me that she was going to have to make whole new retainers  and that I would have to come back tomorrow to pick the new ones up. She put the blue mould on my teeth once again and this time pushed up really hard so she covered my whole to then left and went back out into the waiting area and waited for my appointment card to be filled out. I was so annoyed because I had already missed 1 day out of school and now I was going to miss another, if she had of done her job properly none of us would've have to come back tomorrow. I picked up my appointment card and went out and told my dad the bad news. As we were driving home I felt like my big day had been ruined by her stupid mistake.

When I got home I went on the internet and was chatting away to my friends and Brian and they couldn't wait to see my new teeth. I went upstairs and got ready to go out because at about 7pm we were all going to Scoil Na Mainistreach because Dean had a St. John Ambulance cadet award night. Me, my mam and dad sat in the second row and looked at the show that was being put on. It was actually really good and it all ran smoothly and everyone knew where to stand and how to stand and what to say because some of the things they had to say were in Irish!

All of the important people from the St. John Ambulance were there like the head guy and the man who started it all. There was 2 of Dean's leaders who were in charge of giving the trophies out but 1 of the guy kept on making the trophies fall on the ground and everyone was just laughing. Dean's name was called up because he received an award for teamwork but me and my family were cheering and it didn't register in our heads that it was Dean, so my dad was panicking to get the camera and video camera out so we could record Dean's important moment. After that there was a few speeches from some of the leaders and then all the 20 or so boys and girls put on a little show.

I thought it was brilliant and well rehearsed and after it was over, we were all allowed to go over and interview them about the injuries they had to take care off, Dean had to take care of a guy with a broken arm so we went over and was asking Dean what he had to do to help his friend. After the we went home but my dad dropped around to Amanda's house first because I wanted to show her my teeth. I went into her house and showed her my teeth and she was shocked because I looked so weird and they looked so straight. I didn't stay long because my family were waiting in the car for me.

November 21st 2012

Today at 10am, all the 6th years had to go to the 2nd year mall for an assembly, Ms. Watson, Ms. Smyth and Ms. Barry each in turn told us what was going on in the school and things like that. Later on in the day, I had a Careers Talk with Mr. Corcoran so in my double Geography class, I left before the second one. I went down and he was asking me what colleges I was looking at and thinking of applying to. He started recommending other colleges and then he was printing me off reams and reams of pages for different colleges for hair, beauty and childcare. He was really helpful and he really opened my eyes to other colleges and courses that I could look into. I was there for about 30 minutes and then I saw no point in going back to class for the last 2 or 3 minutes so I went to the toilet and then headed towards the games room and by the time I got there, the bell had rang.

At lunch time, I went to the canteen with Alex and she bought me a roll which was nice of her and then we headed back to the games room. It was really funny at lunch time because me and the girls were singing at silly song that we made up but we were all laughing and I was nearly in tears because the song was actually really funny.

All that happened for the rest of the day was that we had a Spanish test and school was over at 3.05pm because there was a parent-teacher meeting. 

November 20th 2012

Today in school just a few things happened that I can remember anyway. Alex was out and me and Amanda made up after the little disagreement. We got a Home Economics test back that we had done a few days ago. I passed it anyway :)

In Biology, me and Amanda did an experiment and then she offered me a lift home which was nice. 

November 19th 2012

Today in school, me and Amanda weren't really talking but I cannot remember why but usually it's about something really small and is easily resolved. At lunch time, I got a but upset but then I was okay afterwards. After school, Brian then walked me home and he came into my house for about an hour and we hung out.

November 18th 2012

Today me and Brian had planned to go to Argos because he was getting my belly bars and I was getting his bracelet. My dad dropped us in at like 2pm and while we went into Argos, my dad went into Atlantic. We got the presents and went into Atlantic to meet up with my dad and then we headed home. When we got home, we watched some television for a little while and then Alex came over. Brian and my family were watching the television and I brought the dining room table and a few chairs into the sitting room so me and Alex could do our homework and watch the television at the same time.

My mam decided to put on a movie that we could all watch together. She put on a movie called "In Time", I had seen it advertised on television before and thought it looked like a very good film and I wanted to see it for so long so I was glad she was putting it on. Me and Alex barely did any homework because our eyes were glued to the screen. At about 8pm Alex had to leave because she was going to the cinema with her family to see "The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part 2". I was so jealous because I wanted to go and see that movie because it was the last movie in "The Twilight Saga" and even if you didn't like Twilight, you still had to go and see the last movie to see what happened in it and if characters got killed or whatever.

When Alex left, me and Brian sat together and watched the end of the movie and then for the rest of the night, we just went on the computer and went on Facebook and YouTube and just hung out really

November 17th 2012

Today my mam told us that we were going to be having a big Murphy House cleaning day. She woke me up at like 10pm and told me to get dressed. I went downstairs and I started hovering and then started washing windows which took ages because I did the conservatory and front door. It was good with everyone helping out because that means that we were finished faster. A few hours passed and we were getting a bit tired so my mam told me that she was going to bring us to McDonald's to treat us for all the hard work that we did.

We finished up what we were doing and then we got ready to go to McDonald's. We went to the one in Lucan near the Spa Hotel and when we went in Tom, Craig and Lee, Brian's friends, were there with 2 girls. I sat down and acknowledged them, they looked at me and smiled. Dad came down with a big tray full of yummy food. We tucked in and enjoyed every bit of it, we then got some ice creams and then headed home.

November 16th 2012

Today there was an college open day in Blanchardstown I think so there was loads of people out. In Biology, Ms. Felle didn't want to move on in any of the syllabus because it wouldn't be fair to the people who were out so we ended up watching videos on YouTube. About 10 minutes before the end of class, Stephanie wanted to show us a video she found online which was to do with the topic in Biology we were on at the minute. When she put it on, everyone was smiling and even Ms. Felle was smiling, it was a really smart song and a really good way of learning the topic by using a current song. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p4zOXOM6wgE

We had no P.E. today so when we went to the reception, none of us knew what to do or where to go but a few minutes later, Ms. O'Callaghan came along and she said she would look after us. She brought us to the demo room, me and Alex took a seat at the back next to the window. Ms. O'Callaghan told us to do our homework or study but she ended up just chatting to us, a few minutes later she asked us whether we wanted to correct some 2nd year class tests, Alex did but I didn't want to. Me and Alex just started talking for the rest of the class but Niamh Plunket went up and showed Ms. O'Callaghan the Biology song that we were listening to this morning and she loved it. She started laughing and wrote the song down so that she could show it to her students. We then started listening to other Biology songs, different songs for different topics in Biology.

In Irish, I had an oral so Ms. O'Connell brought us, one by one, to her desk and we would talk to her about ourselves and then she would tell us how we did and what we could improve on.  She said mine was really good so I was glad that I knew a good bit about myself properly and now all I had to do was learn it off. In Spanish I can't remember what we did but I remember it was fun anyway. :P

In Geography, Ms. Watson was out so we had a free class, I just started on some of my homework. After school I went out to Brian and I hung out with him and his friends in Graatan Court and then we went into his house at about 8.30pm. Me and him just watched some television and then I was texting my friend Shane Egan and he was saying that he would drive me home at 9.45pm. I was grateful and at 9.45pm Brian walked me over to the top of Setanta where Shane was in the car waiting.

I got in and he brought me for a spin in the car, we went around Celbridge but not the main roads because of the ramps and red lights so he took me along the back-roads and then at one stage he was only going about 20 km/hr and he turned off all his lights for about 2 seconds and I nearly panicked because it was pitch black and we were still moving. He laughed at me and told me that it was okay that we weren't going to die. I felt a bit stupid but it was so scary because we honestly couldn't see where we were going. He then brought me home. BRIAN HUURY UP AND GET A CAR PLEASE!!!!!!!! :P

November 15th 2012

Today Amanda was going to hospital for appointment about her foot. She arrived into school at about 12.00pm. For the rest of the day, nothing really happened. In the evening I applied to Sallynoggin College of Further Education. I then got a text from them about 10 minutes later saying that my application had been accepted and that I would get a text from them in the new year about an interview that I would have to attend. I was happy that at least I had applied to 1 college. 

November 14th 2012

Today was a pretty boring day because nothing really happened, there was a cake sale on in my school but I didn't go. HA :L

Amanda was texting me in the evening and was saying that she was going to be arriving late into school on Thursday. I went around to her house to collect my Biology book and a few sheets because I would need them tomorrow morning. 

November 13th 2012

Today I didn't wake up until 11am because my mam told me that I didn't have to go to school so that I could get rid of my cough and cold. My mam went out in the morning to the village because she had to get a few bits in the shops, she came back and showed me what she got. she got me 4 small Christmas styled gift bags from Gogarty's, they were 49cent each and she thought that they would be perfect for my friends presents.

She had also said that there was a shop in the village that buys old laptops and all things electrical, she said that she would have to talk to my dad about it but she was considering letting them buy my old laptop and asking them if they could fix my internet tablet. I was excited because she did say that whatever money they would give us for my old laptop, I could keep. That was grand but all I was hoping for now was that they would a lot for the laptop.

For the rest of the day, I just lay about trying to get rid of my cough and cold and it was kind of working because I felt a bit better and I told my mam that I would be going to school on Wednesday so my dad bought me some more tablets and soothers.

November 12th 2012

Today when I woke up, if I'm being honest, I felt like shit. I couldn't breathe, I had a cough and cold which I was really annoyed about because I hate being sick because I develop a type of "man-flu" when I'm sick. I just stop functioning altogether so people know to stay clear of me when I'm sick. I got up, got dressed and went downstairs and told my mam the bad news. She gave me medicine and 2 paracetamol and told me that if I felt worse during the day, I could come home.

I went to school and I tried my best to cope with my illness but I honestly couldn't so I told my friends that after little break I was going home. I went up to Room 33 and instead of going in and sitting down for Geography class, I waited outside the room until Ms. Watson came along. I told her that I wanted to go home and she said that she could tell that I felt terrible so she told me to go home and get some rest.

My mam came and we went home, she made me a cup of tea and drugged me up again. I went to bed and went back to sleep for a few hours. I woke up around dinner time and I wasn't in the mood because the last thing I want to do when I'm sick is eat. I couldn't taste or smell anything. I think I just went to bed and tried to sweat the cold out of me and suck on soothers to help get rid of my cough. I was in the kitchen getting a drink at about 9pm and my mam came in and said that I didn't have to go to school tomorrow because I was getting worse and because I hardly miss any school so 1 day wouldn't matter. I went to bed then and tried my very best to get to sleep.

November 11th 2012

Today me and Brian had planned to go to Liffey Valley. My dad dropped me and Brian off there at like 2ish. We had already planned that we would get 1 of our presents for each other. I was getting Brian Ne-Yo's new cd "RED" and he was getting me Calvin Harris' cd "18 months". I went to the toilet so Brian went in to HMV and got my cd and then I went in to get his. We then went upstairs to get some food, we ate and talked and it was nice and I was glad that everything was back to the way things were before. We then left and headed for Argos, I was showing Brian some of the belly bars that I wanted to get and I was showing him a bracelet that I was planning on getting him for Christmas. He loved it so it was settled, that I was getting him the cd and the bracelet for Christmas.

He said that because the bracelet was €29.99 he would get me 2 belly bars which would add up to be nearly the same price. I showed him 2 that I would like and he said that he would get them but not that day. We left and headed for the bus stop because we were going to go home. We hopped on the bus and relaxed and then my dad was texting me saying where we were and he said that he would collect us at Tesco and bring us home. When we were in Celbridge, my dad texted me saying that he was behind us so when we got off the bus at Dara Court, he pulled in and we hopped in. He drove us back to the house and then we chilled out there for about an hour and then when my dad was driving Brian home, he dropped me off at Katie's on the way.

I went in and Amanda, Katie and Rachel were there. For the rest of the night, well until about 10pm we went on her laptop and listened to music and were talking, laughing and messing. It was nice to spend a few hours with the girls. 

November 10th 2012

Today I hung out with Brian. He offered to walk down to my house, collect me and then we would walk back up to his house and have a nice day together. I was happy. We went to his house, hung out there for a few hours and the we went down to Tesco and then back up to Spar and back to his house for the rest of the night. It was a really good day and I could see that he honestly was trying to make it up to me for what he did a few days ago. I was glad that he was willing to give us another go.

November 9th 2012

After yesterdays drama, Brian had said that he was going to take me to The Odeon cinema in Blanchardstown to see a movie with the tickets that he got free in the post from the Bank of Ireland for putting money in his bank. I got some too so I was going to keep them until next month. I can't remember what time it was but his mam drove to my house and picked me up and drove to Blanchardstown. While me and Brian went to see a movie, Brian's mam went off to do some shopping. We went up and he got 2 tickets to see "Here comes the boom". I had brought some food with me, we went in and sat down. He put his arm around me and apologized for what had happened yesterday. He kissed me and hugged me and then we tucked into the food.

The movie was really funny and I enjoyed myself and it was nice to go to see a movie with Brian where it was just the two of us. We left and met up with his mam and she said she was going to bring us into McDonald's for something to eat. I thought that was nice of her, she got some chips, chicken nuggets and some burgers and drinks. It was really nice and kind of her. We then got back in the car and drove home, we went back to Brian's house and we went into the side room and watched some television until I went home. 

November 8th 2012

Today started off as any normal day. I woke up, went to school as normal but then at lunch time disaster struck. I was eating my lunch as I normally do with my friends and I was texting Brian as well. I was talking to him for about 10 minutes and I knew that something had happened. He didn't really sound like himself it was like he was someone else. Suddenly I felt like my heart was just ripped from my chest. Brian had just said that he didn't love me anymore but I was adamant that it wasn't him. It couldn't be him! I told my friends and they were shocked because they knew how much he loved me but they were obviously wrong. I felt the tears flooding my eyes and I ran into the bathroom and cried and then I fell to the floor in the cubicle. I needed to talk to him so I called him and he told me again that he didn't love me. I still didn't believe him but I was really angry because in my head I knew it was his friends that were texting me but he assured me that it was completely him.

I walked up to my locker, clinging my phone and I walked past Norma and Phoebe and they turned around and Norma said "Lauren are you still with Brian?" I lied and said "Yea why?" and then she sneered and said "Thought he broke up with you?" I was shocked that it had travelled the schools so fast. I stormed off and texted Amanda saying "Norma knows" and then I went back to the games room and cried some more and my friends were asking me how she knew but I didn't know. Everything just didn't make sense, it was like I was in a paranormal universe and some one else was pulling the strings.

Amanda and Alex had asked me for Brian's number and they started texting him and asking him was he just messing or what. He wasn't, this was really happening and there was nothing I could do about it. I went outside and stood behind a pillar and cried and then Alex and Rachel came out to me and then Katie came out with some tissue. Alex and Amanda then said that they was going to bring me to see Mr. Corcoran. We went over and Mr. Corcoran had said that he was too busy so he couldn't talk to me but in fairness he did seem very upset that he couldn't help me. He brought me into his office for a few minutes and he told Alex to go to Room 6 to tell Ms. O'Connell where me and Amanda were. Me and her then went over to the meditation room and we sat down and I got upset again. Amanda hugged me and held me close like something my mam would do and as I cried she assured me that there was a reasonable explanation for what was going on, I then started to stop crying and she promised me that it was all a joke.

We were in the meditation room for the 2 Irish classes because I couldn't face going back to class halfway through a class where people would be nosey and asking people what was wrong with me and why I was crying so I just stayed there until 3.20pm. Mr Kerrigan came into the meditation room at about 2.40pm and he asked me what was wrong with me and why I was crying so much, Amanda told him and he was shocked. Amanda told him everything and he told me that I shouldn't try to get back with him or anything like that because he had treated me so badly and that I deserve better than him. Apart of me knew that he was telling the truth, I mean it was our 1 year anniversary about 2 weeks ago and now he was dumping me by text, the most hurtful thing of all was that a few months ago I asked Brian would he ever dump me by text and he said "no" that dumping someone by text was the worst way of dumping someone. I kept on saying over in my head that this was all a big misunderstanding but I still needed to see Brian but Mr. Kerrigan told me that I shouldn't go over to see him because I would make myself even more upset.

At 3.30pm Mr. Kerrigan brought me and Amanda back to our last class of the day, he went in and told Ms. McArdle where we were and apologized for us being late. I sat down and as the clock was counting down to 4pm all I could think about was seeing Brian and I couldn't wait until school was over. I walked home and I was texting Brian and he was still saying that he didn't love me anymore and when I got home I went upstairs and asked Brian to call me, I needed to speak with him. I asked him where he was and he said that he was in Tesco getting something so I told him to walk up to my house so we could talk. He said "okay I'll be 10 minutes".

20 minutes passed so I rang him asking where he was, he was at home! I was disgusted and had one of them "WTF?!" moments. He said that his mam had collected him from Tesco and brought him straight home. I said "Okay, I'll go up to your house" so I told him that I would see him in 5 minutes and that when I get to his house, he better be there. I asked my dad could he give me a lift,  my mam and dad knew there was something wrong because they could tell I was crying and they were kind of like "Why do you need to go to his house now?" I had to tell them that Brian had broken up with me and that I needed to go see what the hell was going on.

I rang Brian's doorbell and he answered it, I was expecting him to talk to me at the door but he invited me in. We sat down and I could tell that something was fishy like someone was going to jump out from behind the sofa and shout "You've been pranked!" I was starting to get upset because the love of my life was telling me how he didn't love me anymore but I wasn't accepting that, I was demanding that he tell me WHY he didn't love me anymore. I moved closer to him and put my hand on his, he didn't move. I was sobbing and I was confused as to why he wasn't, I mean if I ever meant anything to him I would think he would get a little bit upset when he broke up with me, but no, nothing! That hurt me more than anything and I was sitting there shouting at him "Why aren't you getting upset?!" He shrugged, I knew he was lying for some reason and I was getting angry because he was making his girlfriend feel like this, so paranoid, so angry.

I sat on his lap and he didn't seem to care, I thought to myself, this is good he must still like me a little bit, I got even closer to him and went in for a kiss. He rejected me. I felt heartbroken and when he didn't even want to kiss me one more time because he hadn't seen me in 4 days and if he was breaking up with me, I would think that he would want to kiss me 1 more time. I looked into his eyes, all I saw was darkness whereas before when I would look into his eyes, I would see myself. I could feel some adrenaline moving inside me towards my right hand, I wanted to slap him and hurt him as much as he was hurting me. I wanted him to suffer but I still love him and I was angry at myself for letting myself love him as much as I did. I held his head in place and I kissed him again, this time our lips touched. He kept his lips firmly pressed together and I tried my hardest to open them. Nothing! I leaned back and looked at him and then I started stroking his neck and hugging him and making him feel like he did still me and trying to get him to hug me back. I went in for 1 more kiss an I thought to myself, 'this is the last time and if he doesn't kiss me back, then I'll know that it's over', As my lips touched his, he kissed me back, I could've jumped up and down, he did still like me and I started crying and begging him to take me back and that we could give it one more shot. He looked at me with love and care, he accepted, he agreed to take me back. My heart was restored, he gave me a big hug and told me he was sorry and that he would never hurt me again. I cried some more and he wiped my eyes and kissed me, it was so gentle, so soft as if it was our first time.

I couldn't stay for long because the 'girls night in' thing with Amanda was tonight so I had to call my dad and get him to collect me. When I was leaving Brian's house, Brian had tears in his eyes and he told me that he loved me and that he never wanted to hurt me ever again and said "goodbye sweetheart". I was holding his hand and then when I let go, I felt empty again. It was like we were connected in some way and when I left him I was on my own. I was happy that we sorted everything out though, but my friends were going to hate me because Amanda told me earlier on in school that if I got back with Brian, that she would stop being my friend. I didn't want to loose either of them so I wasn't going to chose, I was just going to be honest with Amanda and tell her that if she was a real best friend, she would just want me to be happy.

She came over at about 6.30pm and it's safe to say that I was shiting myself because I knew that when I told her, she would change her perspective of me and she would be angry at me for being so stupid. I told her and she was angry and upset that I took him back. I started to get upset and she asked me why I was crying and I told her it was because I didn't want to loose her. She looked at me and I hugged her and she assured me that I wasn't going to loose her, she just didn't want me to get hurt. My mam came in and we all started to talk about what had happened and I knew that they both just wanted me to be happy but I wanted them to understand that I loved Brian with all my heart and that I would do anything for him and I knew deep down that he would do the exact same thing for me and I knew now that he wouldn't do anything ever again that would hurt me or affect our relationship.

Me and Amanda set off to our girls night, my mam and dad dropped us to the hotel in Leixilip, we went in and this guy that worked in the hotel brought us to the function room. We gave in our tickets to 2 women sitting at a desk by the door, we walked in and looked around. We had to be the youngest people there, everyone there was like the age of our mams. We went to a table and sat down and came up with a plan. We decided that we would just walk around and look at the different stalls and have see what they were selling, go to the bar and get a drink and then sit back down again.

We started walking around sticking to each other because we were so nervous, some of the things that were being sold there were actually good quality gear and if I had a couple of hundred euro I would buy a lot of things there. There was about 12 different stalls or companies that sold things from Christmas candles to baby clothes and earrings to handbags. After having a look at the merchandise that was on offer, we went to the bar and I got a drink because Amanda didn't want one yet. Sipping my Coca Cola, we sat down again and talked for a bit, Amanda said that she was going to buy some things here and then she got me thinking about it. I figured that I didn't' need money for anything over the next few days so it didn't bother me.

It was really hot in that room so we left and went outside of the hotel into like a courtyard which had loads of tables in front of a giant television on the wall and there was a waterfall scene which was inconvenient because we couldn't hear what was on the television then. We were sitting down for a good few minutes and talking and laughing really and then we decided to head back over to the room, we went back in and decided to walk around the stalls again. There was a few that had a questionnaire sheet and a draw that you could fill in so we filled them in and put them in the box required.  Me and Amanda decided we wanted to get some form of friendship bracelet so we walked over to the stalls that sold jewellery but the bracelets were a bit expensive.

As the night went on, me and Amanda went over to the Avon stand and were asking about the sample products that she had on display. She said they were free samples and that we could take them, we did. We took loads of stuff from mini perfumes to face masks. We were happy and were on our way, we went outside again to the courtyard to sit down again because that room was roasting. I decided that I wanted to get a little present for my mam there, we went over to a stand which sold baby things and a few Christmas decorations. Amanda was looking at these 2 statues, 1 was like an angel which was on a spring so she could shake if u pushed her and the other one was of 2 little girls singing a hymn with their arm around each other. The woman said that they were €1 each but Amanda said "no", the woman then said €1 for the 2 and Amanda shook her head, so I said "I'll have them!" so I got the 2 of them for a euro. I was happy and I knew my mam would like them. Amanda got something for Harry as well there.

There was then lovely sambo's going around so me and Amanda swiped a few, the draws were going to be done at that point, neither me or Amanda won anything. Typical! We went over to a stand where there was a woman doing peoples nails, Amanda got her nails done but I didn't want mine because I don't have any nails, The night ended with this woman getting up and telling us a story about when she was a size 32 and now she was a size 16 and everyone was so inspired and clapping and cheering for her. It was really inspiring that she chose to change her life and make herself feel better about herself. Me and Amanda decided to leave so Amanda called her mam and her mam said that her dad was leaving to come and pick us up. We sat in the hotels reception and waited for about 20 minutes and then her dad was outside so we hopped in and headed home.

When I got home my mam and dad were asking me about what we did during the evening and I showed her the free Avon stuff that I got and I gave her the little ornaments that I bought for her and she loved them. She gave me a kiss and then I went to bed.